. >> rose: it's to use a memory that is with us right now in connecticut, those teachers who stood in the line and lunged at a gunman to protect their kids, you ask yourself when you hear that would i have done the same thing. i i think that's right. i think none of us know how we would react in a situation like that until are you unlucky enough to be in one. and then. >> rose: and then if you have children, the idea of survival just kicks in. >> yeah. well, when i came out from the water i would say i was feeling why i am alive. i don't want to be alive. that was pie feeling. that was, this is scene where naomi is screaming this incredible screaming means i don't want to be alive. i don't have any meaning to be alive if i am alone, if i don't have anyone to take care of, anyone to love, why do i am alive. but-- . >> rose: because you thought at that moment they were all gone. >> absolutely. you have no other thought, not at all. i mean when we went through it was just impossible to think anyone else was live. >> rose: i want to see the scene now of her played by naomi grasping the tr